Ramblings

So the other night I was listening to a song by James Vincent McMorrow called Higher Love. It's such a beautiful song with really good lyrics and I was inspired to write about how I was feeling at the time. Then I found some other ramblings I typed on my phone about a month or so ago and I joined them together. So here you go.

Ramblings of an insomniac

Sometimes I don't know what to do. God, let me feel Your love. I just need everything to be real. What will it take for me to stop being so inconsistent?If I think about it, I get sad. Everything I'm going through, everything that's in my mind seems so jumbled up. Right now I don't even know if I'm making much sense, but I'm just confused. Deep down, I know what I want and all I want is more of You. I just desperately need You, but my mind and my heart is so messy that I keep forgetting what I'm supposed to want, what I need.Bring me to higher love. Higher love for You.Let me feel this overpowering love that You have for me. I want to drown. Let me drown in Your love. To be empty yet to feel so full. You're all I want to need. You're all I want to see.But I'm not like this. Hold me down, don't let me go. I'm tired of freedom that kept me in chains. I'm running to leave it behind. I want to leave it all behind.You carry the flame. I'll follow You, follow Your light. I want to do it now.I want to do that right now.